Its been awhile since I did a Monday Mumbling! But I have just a bunch of things to mumble about....which mind you is different than murmuring and complaining, though after you read today you may think I should switch it to Monday Murmurings...
oh my goodness I love that my kids take a bus to school. It is the coolest thing ever. I love not having to pile kids in the car or walk the mile...though I think my butt is missing those morning walks. But this morning, with the blistering winds and freezing air, I walked into the house with brain freeze and wondered why our bus stops aren't the same and just down the street. So I called and complained, which you should be kind of proud of me, I never really do that, but man I just can't stand my kids having to walk to far in the snow, and I don't want to mess up the two kids that have the bus stop the end of their driveway but man, why can't there be two stops??
Friday night, some girls and I went to eat at this little Japanese restaurant, pretty tasty, its called the hibachi grill and then we headed over to see Bridal Wars, funny, cute and pretty predictable, but light hearted, made me laugh and just a time I needed for me. But the best part of the night was going to Cookie Cutters I think that is what it was called and enjoying ice cream sandwiches...YUMMY, see you pick a cookie then you pick your ice cream and they make you a sandwich...yum yum yum, and we just sat around and talked for awhile.
Saturday we got together with Eric's family to celebrate Jason's birthday as well as mine, but mostly Jason seeing I have two more weeks until mine, and me being the party person I am I think I am going to make sure we get together again before then. It was a lot of fun. We had a great time sitting around talking as the cousins all played together.
Little T-Rex fell off the bed or something but hurt his little foot. He didn't seem to mind us touching it so we assumed it wasn't broken. He is still limping pretty good this morning and well as soon as the roads de ICE I think I am going to take him in to have it xrayed, I mean we still have insurance for a few more days, might as well take advantage of it, and make sure its not broken. Poor little guy.
Sunday we went to church and then headed to my sister's house for dinner. Again, yummy food, fun conversation and cousin fun times. Though I was feeling tired and exhausted.
See yesterday we had a lesson on finding joy in our lives, based on a talk given by President Monson....And to be totally honest, I am just having a really hard time finding joy right now.
I know I need to. But it is hard, when we have no income, no home of our own, kids that go to bed crying and screaming and wake up crying and screaming, where is the fun in that?? Yeah if you haven't guessed it fun is the word for the day.
I just am in a slump of all slumps and need to find the light at the other side. I just can't seem to see past my mountain of problems. I think I need to do some service. I think I need to exercise.
But the only way to get out of a slump is to climb up the mountain, and we all know how fun that is. I am just out of shape and not sure I can make it up the hill. ....But we will. Too many things to get past: my health, my weight, my in ability to discipline, my un ruley children, no job, no insurance, no wages, no home (though I AM SOOOOOO GRATEFUL we have wonderful family to take us in...we aren't an easy group to manage or host)
I just want to be able to really just enjoy being with my family and just laugh with my kids. It seems we aren't laughing as much or that I am as fun to be around anymore. Oh well this too shall pass right???