February 26, 2010

So I over Heard....

Since I work a job where I really have a lot of time by myself to think, don't get me wrong its a lot of hard work, physically, but my mind is kind of freed up.....so I either am deep in thought, or totally EAVES dropping...is that the right phrase?

Lets just say I have BIG ol' listening ears.  I don't really remember what is said, and some times I will totally join in on a conversation and often think....opps should I have said something??? 

Anyway, yesterday as I was going down the hall ways wiping down and dusting chairs, I heard someone speaking to another person....this is what I caught...

"I don't want to hear you complaining how bad your life is.  Do you have a job?  when right now its hard to find a job???  Do you have a roof over your head?  Clean clothes on?  Food in your belly?   You do not have it bad?  You don't have it the worst!  Are you standing on the street corner in the freezing weather, not eaten for several days?  Not showered?  Changed your clothes in how long?   Living in a grass hut???  I don't want to hear how bad you have it because you don't have it bad at all! So stop your complaining!" 

As I sat wiping the foot prints off the bottom of the black swivel chair, I listened as if she was speaking to me...she did turn the corner and we did talk for a bit, well she just complained to me about one of her complaining co-workers...but anyway the thought came to me.....I really do not have it that bad....even though the possibilty of those things happening to me, feel closer and closer, BUT they are NOT! 

I truly have been blessed with small miracles in my life, a random check in the mail, a few extra customers at the restaurant, finding a job in housekeeping even though most times I feel like I should be doing something more with my degree, a husband that is able to watch the kids.  I am grateful for the job.  Anyway, all though I feel overwhelmed and like I have had all that I can handle, I know that someone is looking out for me, and that I am blessed daily. 

February 25, 2010

Why can't I sleep?

It's 4 AM and I really should be asleep but I just can't!  I wish it was because I was all excited for Santa to come, or we were getting ready to go on a long vacation to Hawaii.......but it's not.....more like I had to go to the bathroom after being kicked in the gut by Two.   And for some reason I have this nagging something's not right, something is bad happened, sick gut feeling....could be the kick but after going to the bathroom the feeling hasn't left me.

My mind wanders over the thoughts of how life sure has taken me on a ride this past year....a very long topsy tervy (sp?) one.   Today I felt overwhelmed with all that is going on, and am feeling the weight of our situation on my shoulders.  Maybe that is what is wrong with my right arm, it is numb most of the time and can't hardly move my shoulder, here I was thinking I pulled my muscle or hurt my shoulder disk (if you have one?) but maybe its just the stress of my life.

I have decided that finding the job as a housekeeper has been a great one for me, all but the paycheck, but any little bit helps...though its hard to go to the store and get your kids needed glasses because they already broke and had their one fix for the next 24 months, and think oh I just have to work two full eigh hour shifts to pay those off....and then have your son come home from school with both his feet sticking out of the front of his shoes and buy him a pair and think wow now I have to work five hours to pay those off....and we didn't buy expensive shoes! 

Anyway I enjoy the physical part of housekeeping, running from room to room, cleaning quickly...though I have found I am a little OCD and its hard to turn around a room in the time limit.  Though I was so proud of myself the other day, I only mopped the room once....But the other great part of my job is the opportunity to meet so many people, because man that hospital has a lot of people passing by.

The hardest part of going from a fulltime mom, to a fulltime employee and mom, is I ....well just lost my train of thought....but I find that I need to sleep!


February 18, 2010

Whats for dinner??

Being that I have been home for a few days, laying around doing nothing I decided to get up and fix my kids dinner.....

First a veggie burger smothered in crisp onions, tomatoes and lettuce, followed with::

Some fruit fun and yummy chocolate dessert

Ok I am not fooling anyone, my kids went to the pantry and opened a can of Progresso soup split pea soup, a can of cambells chicken noodle, can of corn and can of olives.....
and this is what they said to me...

"This is really good" Bee
"Can soups are so tasty and easy to make, you don't ever have to fix us dinner as long as you keep can food around, Mom"  G-Man
"We can make our own dinners now mom, so you can rest when you are sick."  B

So sitting on my table our just four bowls, four spoons and the kids doing a rotating dinner, eating everything.....I guess they have grown since this summer and they can fend for themselves...

if only they would think how great it would be to clean up and do the dishes.....one thing at a time!

February 11, 2010

Natural Gas

"Mom today at school someone kept farting.  We all held our noses and we laughed and laughed.  It was kind of gross, but sure made us all laugh hard."  Said Bee as we sat around the dinner table tonight.  

I asked her what her teacher did, and G-Man interrupts with "Today Mr. Cottle was teaching us math and he said 'this is a pllllllllpppppppppppp pllpppppppppppppp (farting noises), oh excuse me, a yard stick."   Don't remember learning how to measure quite like that.

Then not too longer later, T-Rex, who had been told several times not to sit on the table, got up and sat on the table, letting off his own natural gases, causing the table to rumble. 

And now that they are all in bed, I go to read my email and low and behold, my dad sends me this, forwarded from a friend, so it wasn't him, or atleast he says it wasn't:  

I was in the restaurant yesterday when I suddenly realized I desperately needed to pass gas. The music was really, really loud, so I timed my gas with the beat of the music.

After a couple of songs, I started to feel better. I finished my coffee, and noticed that everybody was staring at me....

Then I suddenly remembered that I was listening to my iPod
And now I go to bed because I have run out of gas!  No more stinky air bisquit stories!

February 05, 2010

History of My Mobile Phones

Back in our early marriage, about 2000 I got my first mobile phone it was a little black flip top.  Not sure what happened to that one, probably just upgraded and moved on to different phones.  Fast forward through three kids and add a fourth.  Not that I am blaming my fourth for the loss of my phones, but ok....lets just say while in his early 2s he sent my phone not once but twice in to the toilet and once over the balcony into a Hawaiian rain storm.  

Fast forward to last month, my phone that I had gotten last year after the balcony rain storm, just kind of died.  Luckily we had a back up phone, one of Erics that he saved for just incase, turned into mine.  Well last week T-Rex found mine to be a little dirty.   I picked up my phone and it was a little slimy and wet.  I turned to the accused and asked "T what did you do with mommy's phone?"

"It dirty, I washed it."

"You washed it?"

"All clean now. Tubby phone." 


So Eric all kind and nice went to Radio Shack and upgraded and signed our life away again for another 2 years.  So me the mom, has had the phone for a few days, um make that one day, and I had it in my scrub pockets at work. 

I was in a hurry to clean a discharge room, washing the toilet, and notice some blood splattered on the back side of the toilet, as I reached to get up back and behind, I head a "krrplunk  splash."  I quickly checked my vocera (my work phone) and it was attached still around my neck.  Then quickly I reached in thinking "Oh Crap!!"  and pulled out my phone. I dried it off, sanatized it, and took it apart.  

It lays in pieces on the counter, heres for praying I didn't T-Rex my phone.

February 02, 2010

Life Lessons coming at me faster than I can think!

What I have learned this past week.....

The alarm clock rings at just past six am, most mornings, almost all nights, I wake up several times before and turn the alarm getting out of bed before it goes off. For some reason I can't sleep. Not sure if its the amount of diet coke I consume during the day to keep me awake, or the stress of life running through my mind or a kid or two climbing in bed, kicking me, or possibly a combination of them all. All I know is I am not sleeping well and really don't even need an alarm clock, just wish for one night I could sleep until its annoying buzz beckons me out of bed.

I shower quickly, dress even faster, seeing I get to wear scrubs every day and only have two pairs to choose from. Its nice not having to decide what to wear, never realized before how much time I spent on this before, though its hard to wash laundry every day...just not a habit I have ever been good at. Off to work I go to log in before seven to start cleaning patients rooms. I never knew I had the energy or strength to work away from home and still be able to come home and take care of my family.

Never in a million years would I have even imagined me being a hospital housekeeper....I try not to see myself as "better than that" but sometimes it strikes a humble nerve to have to tell people that I am an education bachelor degree holder house keeper....Sometimes I enjoy telling people that I taught school, and watch the look of surprise come over their faces as they ask "why are you here?"

I enjoy being around people and enjoy hearing others stories as well as tell mine. I realize that I need to be in social settings and that I have grown a lot.

As I sat across the table today with a fellow house keeper and out of some kind of spite or immaturity or something she looks at me and says "Becky doesn't like you?"

"I do not think I even know her, why doesn't she like me?"

"Cuz your slow"

"I don't think I have even worked with her....not sure why she'd say that."

"Well I thinks its because she is upset that you have taken over her spot at work."


Seriously, are we in junior high people? Actually I don't think I ever did anything like that in junior high, but it sure has shown to me, and maybe I sound a little conceited but so proud of myself for not being one of those people that say things to other people to stir things up, or gossip or try to get a reaction out of them. I just got up and went back to work.

I am grateful that I have been taught to work with others and to be nice. I think people like me. And I am working well with them and they are liking me.

And to top it all off, I have learned that even though I am experiencing trials that I never imagined, they really aren't more than I can endure. And as much as I would like my life to change, the things around me to change, the only thing I can to do is change the way I see them and my own thoughts and attitudes about the whole thing. So today, I proudly say, I am working as a housekeeper to help support my family. It is not my number one choice of a job, but its a job. It doesn't pay half our bills but it pays some of them. I am grateful for work right now.And most days I enjoy getting up and meeting new people.  And in the end, I will look back and see how much this time has helped me to grow and become the better person I will be.

And tomorrow when I am another year older, I can proudly hold my head up and know I am doing the best that I can do to endure and ENJOY the life I have been given.

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