On my fridge I have a magnet that reminds me every day that "everything will be okay in the end, and if its not okay, its not the end!" Though I lay in my bed yesterday sicker than I have been in awhile, who am I kidding the last few months I have been sick, but it was one of the worst days, and all I could do was lay there and pray that I could just feel better. I wonder if I've reached my end.
I lay in bed listening to my children laughing, as they jumped on the tramp and chased each other through the long grass of the backyard. I smiled when Two kept coming in checking on me to see if I was ok. G-man took charge and made sure to watch his siblings. He even apologized as he cleaned up the splattered watermelon that T-Rex decided to paint with on the kitchen floor. Two came in often, just lay next to me with books in had to read. And though my head was spinning, and reading wasn't easy, I realized this moment won't last forever, and she won't be crawling in my bed to read to her.
I look around my house this morning, wondering how the house that was totally clean Sunday night, has exploded in mass nastiness, kind of like when you've eaten too much and you unzip your pants and your belly just comes falling out....Some how my house unzipped its nice clean pants and now lets her belly hang out. I don't have the energy to clean.
Maybe I need some more down time to heal, but then I wake up each day to the daily grind of motherhood. So many things as a mother I should be doing. Or maybe as a housedweller I need to do, like mop, and fold the three basket of clean laundry, find the matching socks, wash walls, and blinds.....the list goes on....But then there is the mother of me, that just wants to enjoy my little miracles, my little blessings in my life. Read a little more, laugh a little harder, and worry less about the mess....someday it will be cleaned up right??
The kids have decided that this morning they needed to take care of themselves, making bacon, frying eggs and now making chocolate banana milkshakes. Ohh yum, they just brought me one.
Together we will clean, or maybe we will hang in our pjs....I do have to go to work too...I'm lacking all kinds of energy and hope this staff infection finds its way out soon.
Life is a blessing, and today I choose to live it....even if its in bed, under the covers! :)